[Drabble] When I Was Your Man

[littlebadlei]

Title: When I Was Your Man
Pairing: Ohmiya
Raiting/Genre: Angst, PG
Disclaimer: I don't own these people or the song, even though i did some changes...
Summary: It seems that you found another hand to hold in yours. A hand that's not mine.

note: i don't have anything against Ohno's relationship, really. but this just came to my mind when i got to know about it.. since really, how many of you can say that your dear otp heart didn't cry when you got to know those rumors? well i couldn't so don't judge me too hard, okay. anyway, huge thank you for my beta: neko_90! I don't know if I would have had posted this if you didn't ask to beta this... thank you!

I thought that everything was okay. I thought that it was getting better. That I still had a chance to hold your hand.

All the touches that we shared in the LOVE tour. All the looks that we sent each other in the Hawaii Blast. Everything we did in these past months made me believe everything was going to get better.

But seems like I was wrong.

It seems that you found another hand to hold in yours. A hand that's not mine.

Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

I'm trying to sleep, but the bed feels cold. Colder than before. I'm trying to remember to eat, but it's hard. Even more when the food's taste has gone. I'm trying not to cry, but it hurts. It hurts so much that I can't keep the tears away.

I keep thinking about the past year. Wondering when it changed. When you changed. But I can't find anything. I was so wrapped around your hands to see what I should have seen. To see that the love you had for me once changed to something else.

To see that I lost my chance to make things better than they were before.

My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong man like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ohh,
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes

I'm sorry what happened to us. I'm sorry for being an asshole to you. I'm sorry for being so selfish. I'm sorry for not showing how much I appreciated you. I'm so sorry for not giving my everything to you. But that won’t help me anymore. Cause you walked away from my hands. Walked away from me.

I should have said those words before, but I couldn't. My ego was too big for me to step over it. I should have done what I should have right away. But I was too coward to actually tell you that really, I was wrong.

Too coward to accept the truth.

And now I'll be paying for it.

Although it hurts
I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know

Maybe I should try to speak to you and apologize. Maybe I should try to speak to you and tell you about my feelings. Maybe I should tell you everything. Everything that is going on in my head. Even though I know I'm too late.

But I just want you to know how I feel.

I want you to know how badly I wanted to make everything right. How much I wanted to make you happy again. How much I wanted to appreciate you again. How much I wanted to hold you again. How much I wanted to give my everything to you again.

How much I wanted to dance with you once again.

But now you are dancing with someone else, other than me.

I hope you buy her flowers
I hope she holds your hand
Give you all her hours
When she has the chance
Take you to every party
Cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man

I hope you appreciate her as much you appreciated me. I hope you love her as much you loved me. I hope you hold her like you held me. I hope you give her everything you have, as you gave me when we had our time.

I hope she holds your hand when you need the support. I hope she holds your hand when you are happy. I hope she would always hold your hand, now that she has the chance.

I hope she will appreciate you. I hope she will show you all her love. I hope she will show how much you meant to her. I hope she shows the things, what I should have done when I had the chance.

Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man

To say I'm sorry and I love you, while holding your hand.

note2: Thanks for reading! I hope you would leave a comment, so i could know what you thought about it :)
p.s. the words are from 'When I Was Your Man' song by Bruno Mars

Comments

[itsumo-niji.livejournal.com]

awww nino *hugs him tight*. this was really sad but beautifully written, thank you <3
p.s: ohno is dating? O__O

[littlebadlei.livejournal.com]

thank you!! that means a lot to me!!
so you haven't heard this HUGE scandal going on? well this one magazine said that he was dating a girl, but just now we got news that said he wasn't and he's sorry... though it feels so forced and all....
i just want ohno to be happy :

[reyahh321.livejournal.com]

Why does this feel so real.ugh, nino. ;(